Mike Shinoda is speaking up about how he dealt with the loss of his bandmate Chester Bennington, who passed away in 2017.

The co-founder of Linkin Park spoke candidly about his feelings on the passing of Bennington during an interview on The Howard Stern Show broadcast on SiriusXM on Tuesday.

Shinoda, who is 46 years old, explained why he was furious by saying that there were times when he felt that way and that it was normal for him to feel that way. “Anger may surface at any point during the grieving process,” one person said.

After that, Shinoda went on to describe in further detail what had been going on behind the scenes with his former bandmate.

The musician elaborated by saying that “nobody realized the depths of it.” “I’ve never met somebody with such a weird background… just barely getting out of prison,” he said.

“It was difficult, and in the middle of everything that was going on… he’d just go AWOL and come back destroyed, to the point where you couldn’t even speak to him,” he said. “It was horrible.”

“There was a side to Chester that, when he was in that mood, could be really entertaining, but the next day, almost without fail, things would be very gloomy. He is quite hung over, and he is belligerent toward everyone and shouting at them.”

Shinoda began to question whether or not he wanted to continue creating songs after Bennington passed away.

The presenter heard him say, “For me, it simply seemed like too much,” and he echoed those words, “to go back on it and attempt to perform some version of music and also be seen through the lens of what had occurred… it was like being a member of a club that I didn’t want to join,” he said.

“Lost,” the band’s previously unreleased song that features the voice of Bennington, was only just made available to the public earlier this month. In addition, the tune celebrated the 20th anniversary of the band’s album Meteora, which was released in 2003.

During the course of the conversation, he commented on the song by saying that it had the feel of an antique photograph. “To have forgotten that it existed and then to hear it and be transported back there, it’s a gift,” said the man.

“It may be bittersweet, but it’s also a gift.” Since then, they have also revealed that they would be releasing a 20th anniversary edition of the record in April of this year.

Since the Linkin Park and Friends: Celebrate Life in Honor of Chester Bennington memorial concert that took place in October 2017, the band has spent the most of their time on sabbatical.